I realize this blog is for my photo meanderings and newly acquired review of bands and artists I photograph, but since it is my blog and I have complete creative license, today we will talk a bit more about me.
I’ve had a rough couple of months, with some personal issues, however I’ve found out some wonderful things. I have real friends who care and for once in my life are carrying me instead of me trying to be strong and act as if nothing’s been wrong. I learned this the hard way from a past experience when I had no one to fall back on, so instead I fell into my self….never a good thing. It’s not bad to have to lean on others from time to time, but it’s not easy and sometimes it’s very hurtful to the pride to think “I can’t do this alone” , it’s been extremely healing and it’s getting me to where I need to be. Good people are important in your life, without them, we meander aimlessly and take longer to recover. I have also found out how important holding a camera is and when there is music involved it’s even more important; It’s therapy. Unfortunately, this time of year in SW Florida there isn’t much on the music scene in the way of concerts, however we have had some wonderful festivals which I was able to be a part of photographically.
I have found myself working in a business alone that was once shared, and honestly even though I miss the camaraderie, I realize how much stronger I am as a photographer alone. I have to get each shot perfect because I don’t have a back-up. I also have stepped up to promote myself and to build and rebuild my reputation, character and my overall business. It’s not an easy process, but definitely one I am enjoying. I am discovering things about myself I didn’t know existed and I am stretching myself far beyond what I thought I could, simply because I am not relying on another person to be there. I also found that I don’t need to respond to negative behaviors; my loyalty, compassion, honor, integrity all speak for it’s self, I have no defense, because there is nothing to defend; my integrity is in tact. People may talk, but it’s simply idle chatter. One of my favorite quotes of recent is by Eleanor Roosevelt which is in the photo I have posted.
I am not perfect nor do I claim to be, I am a woman who loves and will treat others as they have treated me, I love being behind the lens of a camera and am at home in that realm, and I give credit where credit is due. If it had not been for my former partner in life and business, I know I would not be as far as I have come, I have many times over acknowledged that fact. I find with each relationship you grow, and expand and sometimes you think you lose…..but do you really? After all every great oak loses it’s leaves in times of harshness and stress, but what stands is a sturdy trunk, and given the right elements for growth new leaves will appear and the strength of that tree will stand once again to the test of time and the reality of it’s surroundings. I am that tree and I am returning to my full beautiful glory. Look out world because this lady is going to take you by storm and by camera!
As promised the next posting will be camera and music related, Waiting to hear about credentials for the Broadway style rock show, We Will Rock You, featuring the music of Queen.
Catch me behind the lens,
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