I feel as if I’ve been MIA for way too long. I have not written much since the end of April, because life took me for a loop for a while. I’ve been stressed and really haven’t felt much like writing, always had good intentions then as soon as I would get home, my brain kicked off and I shut down. I’m not sure what I am going through, but it’s definitely a funk of some sort. I have been trying to figure out the reasons for it and have come up with several plausible excuses. Moving; this was a big one, moving for me, being alone is extremely stressful. I did have some wonderful help from friends and my youngest son on the big move day, but still I did a lot of loads by myself. I think in the beginning of the move I really didn’t have a place to live, and had a lot going on in the photography part of my life and it sent me over the edge of being confused and stressed. The next element to lead up to this funk is that I’ve not had enough down time, and I don’t mean just weekends at home, I mean true down time with being out of doors camping and spending time with my son. My schedule this past season was so busy I didn’t have time to really release myself to the outdoors. I miss it, I miss spending time with family, and I think that has a huge play in my current feelings. And third, I just have no motivation, my creativity has decreased and I think it all relates back to reason one & two. I am tired……really tired, the kind of tired that all you want to do is to stay in bed and sleep kind of tired, but I make myself get up, get dressed and go out. Last night was the first time in quite some time I did photography for me, for my own pleasure and although I totally enjoy going out with my shutterbug friends, I felt as if I was detached and not really into what I was doing; this needs to change. I took some beautiful shots which I will include as a slideshow at the end of this writing.
I need to get myself back to being excited and wanting to go out and shoot beyond my concerts, which I still find so enjoyable and exciting! I have the possibility of four of them in the next couple of weeks with one of them getting me away and in a hotel for a night….this will be good, because I can then take myself to visit someplace new the morning after. I will not only be photographing three of my top bands, I will also be attending the concert as fan.
My energy definitely goes up when it comes to concerts; I love the excitement of being in the pit and challenging myself to get those near perfect shots, I also need to get out into nature and stop coming up with excuses on why I can’t or won’t. I need to be behind the lens……..